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[with 3 poems by Rae Spencer]
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Innate
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what does a hummingbird know
in its world of nectar and need
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nightly forced to torpor
by the constant urge to feed
through staggering migration
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are its dreams equally desperate?
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does it wake hungry
ill-tempered with beauty
cramped with desire
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suddenly alert to the nature of sugar
aware that satisfaction can only ever be
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illusory
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and what does the hummingbird sense
as it sips the flower’s allure
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does it know of delicate meanings
pitched fever-tight
into its tiny world of furtive speed
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dare I surmise anything?
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maybe nectar is only a meal
sugar an ache that will pass
beauty an accident of form
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and nothing means more than a wing
clasped into the air and released
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effortless
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Rae Spencer
from Alchemy, Kelsay Books, American Fork, UT; © 2024
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Hovering to sip sugar water, flicking your tongue into the red plastic flower, then dive bombed by a lance-tipped green blur – this is daily life for a hummingbird in the Eastern US. We only have the one species here, ruby-throated, and they do not play well with others. When it comes to a choice feeder there is no sharing, unlike the scene in the Western US where a cloud of a dozen birds, four or five different species, will jointly keep a feeder sincerely humming.
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These last two weeks of September we have been visited hourly by the chunkiest hummingbird I have ever seen. The sleeker slimmer birds will chase her away but then she’s right back. (She-birds only; all the males have left for Central America by the end of August and these more svelte visitors and chasers have likely already burned fat as they’re migrating through from farther north). I realize hummingbirds have to bulk up each autumn, entering a period of hyperphagia before migration similar to black bears before hibernation, but this bird is a real hunk. She is going to have no problem making the 800 km flight from Florida to Yucatan, a natural miracle for such a tiny creature who, even at twice her normal body weight, still weighs only 6 grams – about the weight of a postcard, or of the well-sharpened pencil you’ll use to write a note to Guatemala to let them know to expect this ruby-throat in a couple of weeks.
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Audubon NC suggests continuing to fill hummingbird feeders until the second week in October. Abundant sugar will not deter the birds from setting out on their southward journey; their migration is triggered by light, or actually its absence, the diminishing length of day. All creatures live by their own internal clock. For some the clock’s ticks are soil temperature, snowmelt, the movement of water through earth; for others alarms are set by earth’s rotation and the stretch of sunlight and shadow.
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And no creature lives in isolation. What if come clocks tick out of rhythm with the others? In the Western US, when broad-tailed hummingbirds arrive from their wintering grounds they depend on spring-blooming glacier lilies for nectar to replenish their exhausted energy. By 2012, however, biologists noted that the lilies were beginning to open seventeen days earlier than they had several decades prior. Some would already be withered before the hummingbirds even arrived. By 2050 the birds may completely miss the span of lily bloom.
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Phenological mismatch is the term for this consequence of global climate change. What if migrating flycatchers miss their fly hatch? What if flowers bloom to no pollinators? Some species seem to benefit from early spring – marmots have a longer season to chow down and birth more marmettes. Some species can adapt to new timings but many can’t, especially as climate clocks accelerate their vagaries and variations. We can’t yet know all the consequences, but we know our children and grandchildren are experiencing a different world from the world in which we grew up.
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Belyaev’s Foxes
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When most only wanted their fur
Belyaev wanted their genes
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He selected those he could touch
The ones who ate from his hand
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Exerting curious pressure
On his wild silver stock
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Closed in outdoor cages
To bear Belyaev’s chosen litters
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Where is the gene for submission
For loyalty and bonding?
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Somewhere, it seems
Connected to curly tails
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White stars on the face
Flopped ears and blunt snouts
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Wags and whines and barks
Which compete for favors
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Other than food
So Belyaev’s foxes tamed the men
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With prolonged puppyhood
And after thirty generations
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Heeled happily across their yard
In through the open front door
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Rae Spencer
from Alchemy, Kelsay Books, American Fork, UT; © 2024
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Embryology, cosmology, evolution . . . double helices, insect wings, quarks . . . mystery, contemplation, enlightenment: the poems of Alchemy wend their way through an expanding universe of discovery. There is scarcely a field of science or philosophy that Rae Spencer does not embrace in this collection, using language both precise and technical as well as elevated and elevating. This slim coverlet of atmosphere that supports us, this beneficent congregation of creatures within such mild extremes of warmth and moisture and light, how can one walking through such a place not be inspired?
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And once inspired, what enters us to feed our hearts, what strikes a tonal chord within our minds What shall we believe in? What shall we hope for? Nothing is beneath our noticing; nothing is unworthy of praise. Perhaps the best way to receive Rae Spencer’s expansive embrace embodied in her universalistic collection is as, in the poet’s own words, a patchwork philosophy of wonder (Agnost).
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Rae Spencer is a veterinarian and lives in Virginia, USA. Alchemy is available at Kelsay Books.
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Means of Dispersal
When I view all beings not as special creations, but as the lineal descendants of some few beings which lived long before the first bed of the Silurian system was deposited, they seem to me to become ennobled.
++++++++++++++++++ – Charles Darwin in The Origin of Species
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He spent pages contemplating seeds
How some survived in seawater
Others in the crops of owls
In the feces of locusts
In the stomachs of fish
Frozen in icebergs
Dried in a clump of mud
Between the toes of a partridge
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“In the course of two months,
I picked up in my garden 12 kinds of seeds,
out of the excrement of small birds, and these
seemed perfect…”
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How long in the garden?
Hovering over phials of curiosity
Some rank with the rot of failure
Others yielding green secrets
To the man who struggled to ask
Is there another explanation?
And in the end answered himself
With seed, with barnacles and pigeons
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“…from so simple a beginning
endless forms most beautiful and most
wonderful have been, and are being,
evolved.”
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So Darwin concluded
Without the benefit of Mendel’s peas
Or Watson, Crick, and Franklin’s helices
Without diffusion gels
Sequencers and microchips
Argument is as simple as a garden
Heavy and sweet with fruit
Ripe with answers
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Rae Spencer
from Alchemy, Kelsay Books, American Fork, UT; © 2024
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[with 3 poems by Britt Kaufmann]
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Constant
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The only constant is change.
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In any function, the constant is the number
hanging out alone, no variable at its side.
It is what it is.
Until calculus, when C becomes fixed but unknown.
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The coach’s wife says to him,
“Nothing changes, if nothing changes.”
He says nothing, but nods.
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Always plot time on the x-axis:
It’s the independent variable, always marching on.
Until it isn’t.
Like the shortest distant between two points is a straight line.
Except it might not be.
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I remember the non-trad who thought she could effectively argue
against non-Euclidian geometry to my old math professor,
both of whom then were younger than me now.
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How flat our first knowledge becomes.
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My future-physics-professor daughter
returns from the equator where she learned the Pachamama hug:
a spiral, like how they see time:
each moment a chord with harmonics of past and future.
What did they learn, so close to the sun,
watching the stars,
which is seeing time . . .
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We learn orbits, as if the sun didn’t also fly.
The helix of our DNA, more akin
to our planets’ corkscrew through the dark.
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I stare at images from the newest telescopes at the planetarium
in my Appalachian Mountains:
lost and dizzy trying to fathom the immense void.
Alone in the universe is really
alone in time.
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And what of the twins:
One went to space,
traveled so fast he became measurably younger.
Sure that plot twist shows on a graph,
crumpled into a ball, tossed in a trash can,
so he could keep his birthright.
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how precious this tiny world we burn. A magi’s gift:
watch chain and tortoise shell become slag and ash.
For what purpose, this rain of myrrh?
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Britt Kaufmann
from Midlife Calculus, Press 53, Winston-Salem NC; © 2024
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TIME must be straight as an arrow, because you know if an arrow’s shaft has the least warp the bolt will veer and never come near the target, no matter how perfect your aim. Time must be restricted and prescripted like the graph’s x-axis, proceeding forever to the right with its hatchmark divisions each precisely the same distance from the last one and to the next one. Time must have some plan that makes everything make sense.
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Time being so steady, so reliable, how is that I’ve awakened from this busy dream, its urgencies and deviations and long drawn out doings, convinced that I’ve surely slept sound until down only to press the alarm and it’s 1:00 AM? How has time, restless and relentless, accelerated through these past two months of scheduling and planning Mom’s memorial service, then continued speeding right up to the flurry of texts and calls that crowd the minute when I shut off my phone and enter the chapel and the music begins, still stretching and rapping even until the reaching into my pocket and the unfolding of the poem I will read just before the closing hymn?
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And now time unspools and uncoils. A few hours on the porch this morning while the minute hands takes its own good time to tick over, everything shared with family over the past 48 hours seems to slow and spread. The passage is not yet in focus but shows its desire to take shape. Hours became minutes, now expanding again into hours. Time an arrow, or time a wave? Sinusoidal – will it crash or will the long swell fetch from some distant shore and lap our toes? One deep breath. I can’t yet recognize what I’m seeing, but I see that recognition might become possible, might just possibly someday arrive.
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The past is everything that has slipped the shackles of the present, but a memory is a bit of present still cupped in your hands. Not a crystal of time, not preserved in amber, but a flickering candle of time whose flame creates shapes of its own.
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My younger sister tells me her earliest memory of our mother is being rocked in the wicker chair in which she still rocks herself at her home in Black Mountain. My memories are wisps and phantasms; I can’t say I see those moments, more that I can feel brief spaces and elapses shared with Mom when I was a toddler.
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One vignette is clearer, though. We have boarded an airplane (in New York where we still lived? bound for NC to see Mom’s parents?) and we suddenly realize I don’t have Puppy. Did I leave him behind in the taxicab? Perhaps I wail, but when Mom hands me to the stewardess (this is 1955) and rushes away to find that cab, I feel a shriek rising even though I can’t hear it in memory. How long? How long? But now here she comes, Mom holding Puppy, back at last. Memory complete. Did we take off and land and get hugs from Nana and Grandpop? Perhaps, but all that memory tells me is that my mother was brave and undaunted, and that she would do anything for the little boy she loved.
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Coastal Prayer
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In the pre-dawn glow, the pelican aunties
look down on me from their pier posts in sleepy disapproval,
their eyes set in Dia de los Muertos faces
as I paddleboard the calm intracoastal
before the boats wake.
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No, not me, out to sea, among the crashing waves,
yet still in waters beyond my depth on tremulous footing
where little fishes leap like dashes on a slope field,
the beauty of their tiny splashes mar the surface and make light
a terror flight from a predatory snapper.
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Give me a rule to follow:
+++ The constant rule through all these changes,
+++ The power rule to not give in,
Devise some rule so I make a difference
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Britt Kaufmann
from Midlife Calculus, Press 53, Winston-Salem NC; © 2024
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Why poetry, if not to struggle to make sense of life? (And if poetry can make sense of calculus and astrophysics at the same time, well, bonus!) And what is life if not its changes? An academic physician I knew referred to an unplanned occurrence which produced an unexpected benefit as “a fortuitous concatenation of events.” How fortuitous for Britt Kaufmann to concatenate calculus, the mathematics of change, with the middle years of life, that time of accelerating change in our bodies, our psyches, our circumstances, and reveal to us such a beneficial poetry.
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The set of all mathematical metaphors, as Britt so skillfully displays in Midlife Calculus, is very large, perhaps approaching infinity. The obtuse angles of her students’ exasperating density; the pointed and poignant trigonometry of the arc of her aunt’s dementia; even the calculating language of literary journal rejections: all of these and many more become functions and variables in the grand equation Britt sets herself: the struggle to make sense of it all. Perhaps there is no solution. Perhaps we can find some small gateway to acceptance, even joy, in irrational numbers. Perhaps I will come to the final page of this engrossing book, breathe deeply, and turn back again to page one.
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Midlife Calculus is available from Press 53.
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outlier
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+++ with gratitude for Julian of Norwich
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. . . but all shall be well
of a morning when
the dog thumps her thick tail on the kitchen tile,
a greeting, like the first cup of black coffee
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and all shall be well
of an afternoon when
in February’s chill, green cotyledons
sprout under lights in the laundry room
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and all manner of things shall be well
of an evening when
the weather warms, so windows are thrown wide
to the spring peepers’ sundown song
borne in on eddies laden with lilac
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. . . all shall be well,
and all shall be well,
and all manner of things shall be well
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Britt Kaufmann
from Midlife Calculus, Press 53, Winston-Salem NC; © 2024
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