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Tangled

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[with 3 poems by Hilde Weisert, plus Wilfred Owen]
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Imagination Itself
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++++ To the eyes of a man of imagination,
++++ Nature is imagination itself.
++++ ++++ — William Blake
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Who needs half a million unpronounceable forms of life
Half a world away? Ah, you do, they say,
And enumerate the ways:
++++ Glues, dyes, inks,
++++ Peanuts, melons, tea,
++++ Golf balls, paint, and gum,
++++ Mung beans, lemons, rice,
++++ And a fourth of all the medicines you take,
++++ And a fifth of all the oxygen you breathe,
++++ And countless life-prolonging secrets their wild cousins know
++++ to tell the Iowa corn and the garden tomato.
++++ And if that’s not enough, think of rubber —
++++ and where we’d all be, rattling down the interstate
++++ on wooden wheels.
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And that’s only the stuff we know how to use,
And that’s only the half-million species we know how to name.
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And in the time it took to tell you this
Five thousand acres more are gone.
And by the time that this year’s kindergarten class
is thirty-five, most of what is now alive —
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But wait. What if — what if this deluge of mind-boggling
statistical connectedness were, true as it is,
only the least of it? What if the real necessity
were of another kind, the connection
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Not with what you consume, or do, but who you are?
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With your own imagination, the necessity there
of places that have not been cleared to till,
of the luxury of all that buzzing in the deep,
of a glimpse of feather or translucent insect wing
a color that’s so new it tells you light and sound
are, indeed, just matters of degree, and makes your vision hum
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And makes you think the universe could hum
in something like the wild, teeming equilibrium
of the rain forest.
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Hilde Weisert
from The Scheme of Things, David Robert Books, Cincinnati OH, © 2015
++++ originally published in THE SUN, Chapel Hill, NC
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Semi trailer in the right lane, speed almost matched, I can’t see green flashing past its far shoulder and the close cropped median is no consolation. Another morning driving to Winston to care for my parents, often a highway hour of calm & reflection, but today none of that. The hugeness of the truck, how much steel and rubber son to squat corroding and stinking in a back lot; the miles of asphalt and concrete, how much of the world we have eaten and smothered; myself no better than any, spewing carbon, cranking high this premature heat of summer – what is this world we have so mangled?
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Linda and I caught a whiff of dead thing two days ago. Cool morning leaving for church then on to Duke Gardens for an outing, just a faint premonition of amines and putrefaction. Pre-stench. That night stronger when we returned too tired to seek its source near the driveway. Yesterday pungent but impossible to pinpoint. I didn’t want to find it. The bluebirds all weekend had been fretful and flighty around the birdhouse, bringing insects less frequently although chirping still audible inside. No chirping yesterday morning. Had the fledglings flown? Or . . .? I didn’t want to see what I feared in the nest.
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This morning the dead scent is a shroud of grief. I need to leave for Winston right now but first I walk the drive’s margin sniffing like a reluctant hound. It comes from everywhere. The compost heap? Down the hill, a dead rabbit or squirrel? I’m avoiding the birdhouse. When I reach it, though, I suddenly know. We couldn’t see from the porch but at the back of the post in webbing I tacked up to deter snakes is one. A large black rat snake.
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So to save the eggs, the nestlings, I’ve killed a beneficial serpent. One just like all those I’ve swerved to avoid running over, one that no doubt has contributed to the absence of copperheads on our property. One I should thank, not destroy. The bluebird parents we saw were mightily upset by him even though he could never reach them. No feathered visitations this morning, no chirping. Have the young ones flown? Or for fear of the snake did the parents abandon the nest?
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I will know when I clean out the birdhouse. But I can’t make myself do it this morning.
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Ars Poetica
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“I learned to talk from my mother,” I said,
and was startled: Doesn’t everyone?
But “learned from” –
as if it were playing the piano,
or making the sylsalat at Christmas?
But it was: Her speech,
invented for me, her patience
letting my mouth and tongue
work the vowels, open
and open, then clench consonants
hard in my teeth, all nibbled edge,
and me still making of it a gibberish,
a babble; a glottal soup,
a drool;
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My answering nothing but a rhythmic rumination
of nonsense syllables. But she kept on,
now a whisper, now a song, and in a while
the words became words: Epitome
and punctilio, modicum
and masterly; plenty of slang
like vamoose and delish, and play
in the “Ditto” that either one
could say, and smile, (our secret).
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This language of the days
of our small world, dangled from,
rolled in, colored and toddled,
and finally slept on , a pillow,
the sun,
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Is now so many vocabularies ago, fields
of cultivated speech –
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But with this odd sentence I remember
what came first,
the ravishing world she made
me take, word by hungry word,
and how much more there is to tell
in our original language.
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Hilde Weisert
from The Scheme of Things, David Robert Books, Cincinnati OH, © 2015
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As Hilde Weisert read from The Scheme of Things recently at McIntyre’s Books near Chapel Hill, I was captured in the net of imagining that she cast over her audience. For those few minutes I lived in new places and thought new ideas. Now reading her book straight through has expanded and reinforced that experience. I find it remarkable that poems that criss-cross so many years and so much distance can feel entirely local and present.
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Each of the five sections – Three Stars; The Truth of Art; Skylark; Away; Where We Were and What We Were Doing – is a book unto itself. Each section weaves threads to create an entirety. Three stars: New York, Paris, Budapest, and the family relations that occupy them. The truth of art: language, science, learning to speak. Skylark: jazz, baby, jazz! Away: youth and age, what we lose, whom we lose. Where? This earth, this world, this stumbling life and all we might miss and all we might claim.
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Hilde has lived many lives, it seems. Thanks to writers of books, thanks to poetry, you and I may live many lives as well.
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More about David Robert Books and The Scheme of Things HERE
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Finding Wilfred Owen Again
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Our college love affair was doomed
like all the romance I outgrew at twenty;
trench warfare’s mad embrace be damned
along with Buffy Sainte-Marie and Nietzsche.
++++ And anyway, the war in Vietnam was ending.
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For decades he lay silent in a book,
moved from Brooklyn to St Louis and LA
with curling snapshots, silver rings turned black
the mildewed albums I will never play.
++++ I left him to his war; our war had ended –
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Until I call, the offhand way you do old flames
(as if you hadn’t kept their trail of numbers)
when something big has changed, or Armageddon looms.
(Shamed moment: Was it Rupert I remembered?
++++ Romance imagined?) Not now: War has descended –
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distant and mine. I”m dazed, feckless, as lost
as my lost country. So I come here,
to find myself standing on shattered ground he blessed
with full eyes ninety years ago and hear
++++ him tell another time how war must end
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in this fell field, on this dark page. The night
opens, closes, opens, a swinging sulphur rhythm in the flare
igniting each line end, the faces lit
and then eclipsed,
but always bright the names.
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Hilde Weisert
from The Scheme of Things, David Robert Books, Cincinnati OH, © 2015
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Anthem for Doomed Youth
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What passing-bells for these who die as cattle?
++++ — Only the monstrous anger of the guns.
++++ Only the stuttering rifles’ rapid rattle
Can patter out their hasty orisons.
No mockeries now for them; no prayers nor bells;
++++ Nor any voice of mourning save the choirs,—
The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells;
++++ And bugles calling for them from sad shires.
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What candles may be held to speed them all?
++++ Not in the hands of boys, but in their eyes
Shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes.
++++ The pallor of girls’ brows shall be their pall;
Their flowers the tenderness of patient minds,
And each slow dusk a drawing-down of blinds.
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Wilfred Owen (1893-1918)
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Doughton Park Tree 4/30/2022
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[with poems from Pinesong 2024]
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Grown
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– and you wonder why on good days, she is a fledgling
++++ fallen from its nest. Wrists encircled
++++ ++++ in bird bones, origami limbs
++++ awash in green. To be a body
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in this world is to take comfort
++++ in arrow-straight lines. This is why girls these days
++++ ++++ exist horizontally, among
++++ tree roots thick with stories.
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She tells you she would like to disappear
++++ into the silver curve of the sun. You see it
++++ ++++ in the way she sucks on her fingertips, the way
++++ the sunglow stains her eyes gold. You imagine
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she would fade this way – downy wings
++++ tucked close. Watercolor irises
++++ ++++ soaking into the canvas of the sky,
++++ the smoothest of stones beneath her tongue.
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In the meantime, she means to craft a crown
++++ inlaid with seeds. Gathers cracked corn,
++++ ++++ yellowing wheat. Every crippled thing
++++ she has ever loved.
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You wonder if she means to break
++++ the way the sky does. Float feather
++++ ++++ into her hair like cloud cover, and let
++++ the leaves sliver her apart.
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Luna Hou
Pinesong 2024 – Undergraduate Awards, Second Place
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Why does a person write?
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The mind is a puppy intent on chewing everything to tatters. The mind is a genie in a bottle, entrapped, enclosed, desperate for some way out – the granting of wishes being simply its impulse of gratitude. The mind is a ship lost on a dark sea but remembering dawn and yearning to rediscover the eastern horizon. The mind is altogether solitary and horrifyingly isolated and grasping for any connection, any at all!
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Or perhaps the mind is a whirling planetoid whose gravity and momentum are approbation and a relentless hunt for its 15 minutes of fame. No, no, that’s the answer to a different question – Why does a person share what they have written? And of a multiplicity of answers perhaps the most cynical. How about this alternative: Joy shared is joy squared (or cubed). One mind running is a hamster in a wheel, but two minds in tandem create the traction that slowly, surely sets the earth spinning.
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The mind is a stone on top of a hill. Potential energy . . . plus energy of activation. The mind picks up a pen, but not until its words reach out to another mind does it begin to roll.
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Miss you. Would like to pitch a tent with you.
++++ After Gabrielle Calvocoressi
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Do not care if you have money for the campsite.
Would love to pick this one up, pick up fire-
wood, while I’m at it. Set your lawn chair close
to mine. Miss you. Would like to stir a pot
of mac & cheese on the Coleman stove
like you used to when we all got so tired
of the city. Sit around the picnic table,
orange sauce oozing through white paper plates.
Would love to walk up Foscoe Creek with you,
all the way to the dam. Damn, I miss you.
Wish you would unzip your guilt body.
Would love to help yo burn it. Imagine
how light you could feel. How free your arms.
We could fling the frisbee until dark. Pop open
Pepsis, pop some corn. Would like to ask you
to leave that book on the pew. Miss you. Wish you
believed what you say – that you are truly forgiven.
Just for today, let’s turn of the tv, forget who
is President, not argue about the earth’s shape.
The breeze off the river feels holy. I’d love you
to feel it. Love to show you there’s nothing to forgive.
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Kathie Collins
Pinesong 2024 – Carol Bessent Hayman Poetry of Love Award, First Place
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Revelry
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As a squirrel in the top of the highest hickory
is silently teasing a glorious strobe show
of dawn’s golden light to tickle its way down
through the leaves to the ground and a yellow-billed
cuckoo somewhere past the pasture is cooing
a so soothing, solo reverie, a fawn is navigating
so noisily through these woods, I’m certain there must be
an exasperated doe somewhere very close, having serious
doubts about motherhood . . . .
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Caren Stuart
Pinesong 2024 – Katherine Kennedy McIntyre Light Verse Award, Fist Place
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Thank you, all you writers, who share what you have written! Pinesong 2024 is the annual anthology of the North Carolina Poetry Society. The book is the collected poems by winners of the Society’s contests, eleven contests for adults, four youth, one for college undergrads. Each May, winners are invited to read their poems at Weymouth Center for the Arts & Humanities in Southern Pines, NC. This has become a much anticipated celebration, showcasing the breadth of submissions and talent of the writers involved, as exhibited by today’s sampling of selections.
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Contest judges are prominent poets from around the country; the Poet Laureate category and youth and undergrad contests are limited to North Carolina residents, but all other contests are open and unrestricted. The next NC Poetry Society contest entry period opens November 15, 2024.
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NC Poetry Society: since 1932 supporting, promoting, and celebrating poetry. More information about membership and contests is available HERE
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Welcome to Lagos, Nigeria
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I walked though the jet bridge,
studier in New York’s terminal,
off my third flight in 36 hours.
The air in the airport was rich.
I was greeted by aunties, uncles,
cousins, salesmen with bracelets.
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I sat in the patchy black leather seat
of my grandmother’s ‘93 4Runner
sounding like the last mile in Africa.
The stucco house was surrounded
by a 12-foot-high barbed-wire gate.
So many cousins I had never seen
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all playing Ludo, the board game
like Monopoly. Aunties never seen
plucking my cheeks, telling me stories
about myself I had never heard.
All while my mother’s eldest brother
was being murdered by the terrorist
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group Boko Haram while trying
to find a Christmas tree for us.
This December marks the 8th
anniversary of my absence
from Lagos, Nigeria. Little
brother, I still see you running
with me though the Christmas
tree lot and hiding in Pineville.
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Kenny Ogbata
Pinesong 2024 – Sherry Pruitt Award (grades 10-12), Second Place
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Luna Hou is a rising senior at University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill NC.
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Kathie Collins lives in Charlotte, North Carolina. She is a mythologist and Jungian, and co-founder & creative director of Charlotte Lit.
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Caren Stuart lives in wild Chatham County, North Carolina. Her many creative endeavors are born of and bloom with joy.
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Kenny Ogbata is a rising senior at Charlotte Latin School, Charlotte NC.
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Chris Abbate lives in North Carolina. His latest collection is Words for Flying, FutureCycle Press (2022).
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Setting You Free
++++ for Rosemary
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Think of your arm
as a wing,
the shoulder a hinge
that made you fly.
When it tore, you felt
as if the surgeon had turned his anger
into it, as if he had pressed
the weight of himself
into the hurt, two screws
twisted into humerus.
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During recovery, you tripped
over a throw rug
to answer an impatient doorbell,
an accident, but a new crack
to let some light in,
for another surgeon
to undo the tightness,
unscrew the anger and
make the hinge supple,
give the wing motion.
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Imagine falling to rise,
ascending again
to survey the dark
hem of the Maine Coastline,
its green blanket
of pines nestled against
the chin of your house.
Imagine becoming a bird again,
as you once were,
as you always have been.
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Chris Abbate
Pinesong 2024 – Jean Williams Poetry of Disability, Disease, and Healing, Honorable Mention
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Voice

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[with 3 poems by Michael Gaspeny]
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Dr. Petway is Retiring, 1962
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My husband’s such a ball of pep,
if I shot him, he’d pluck out the bullet, eat it,
slap Old Spice on the hole in his chin,
leave for work whistling.
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My boys will follow their fishing rods
to the rock-and-roll backseats of panting cars
and into sleepwalking marriage.
Fritz the dachshund lies in his basket licking
his parts. Hear his slurping all over the house.
If only I’d had one daughter.
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How do you tell love from guilt?
How real is your love when you can’t trust yourself?
Lie around so much, I should be upholstered.
My life’s a song: “Smoke, Smoke, Smoke That Cigarette.”
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What do you do when you can’t buy a dream?
If I drift in my nighty through Fantasy Park,
Cary Grant hides in the bushes.
When I close my eyes, the curtains rise,
but the film splits. I wait in the dark, clutching
my ticket. What good is it?
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Dr. Petway listens. He doesn’t tell me
to count my blessings, polish the silverware.
He says my pain is justified, arising from the good inside.
He says my chance to heal will come.
He has to pass me on. Dr. Petway will soon be gone.
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Michael Gaspeny
from The Tyranny of Questions, Unicorn Press, Greensboro NC, © 2020
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I see you watching me. In fact, there’s never a moment I don’t notice you. Paying attention is not a pastime – it’s staying alive.
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Not that I can imagine what you’re thinking, standing there at your discrete distance. I couldn’t even try, you and I are so unlike. I know what I’m thinking, though. I’m just here making sure. Yeah, making sure.
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But what do you say let’s try it, just this once, both of us try to imagine. You hear my chatter, follow my swift flitting. Do I seem frantic to you, pressured? Maybe you imagine me exhausting myself with motion and anxiety. It’s not really in my vocabulary, but don’t you recognize projection when you see it?
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This is who I am. This is why I am. Defending my territory. Building and growing. And now these three youngsters. If yours were crying out to you like mine do, wouldn’t you be back and forth every three minutes making sure they have everything they need? And after dusk, when they finally nod off, maybe you’d lean back and say to no one in particular, “I am exhausted,” but I’m thinking you’d be saying that with a little grin on your face and more than a little joy in your heart.
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If you said it in any other way, you wouldn’t make much of a wren.
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Taking After Mom
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Each day Tommy whips a rubber baseball against the house
from a homemade mound. He’s throwing his heart out.
Whump. . . Whump. . . Whump – ball against brick for hours.
High school senior, no team wants him. If he could hang
that wind-up on a hook in the garage, I’d pitch it in the trash.
“Mom, where’s my motion?” he’d ask.
“Haven’t seen it, son.”
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In English class, the book he chose to analyze was
The House of the Dead. It must have sounded familiar.
I read it behind his back. I couldn’t put it down.
I got hooked on Dostoevsky novels
from Crime and Punishment, to The Devils.
In Tommy’s book, I underlined the passage
where the author says useful work ennobles
a prisoner, but if you give that convict two glasses,
one full of water, the other empty, and force him
to pour back and forth all day, he’ll lose his mind.
I wish Dostoevsky could counsel my son
about pitching to no one.
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Michael Gaspeny
from The Tyranny of Questions, Unicorn Press, Greensboro NC, © 2020
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Addie Zampesi recounts her life. Confesses and raves. Gripes and pines. Hides then finds the truth inside herself, misses then discovers what’s truly inside her husband and sons. Forty years she tells it, 1933 to 1973, opens it all to us in lines on the page, even grants us a brief glance back as her family casts her ashes into the bay. Oh my goodness, Addie, how we have come to know you!
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Oh my goodness, Addie, how Michael has spoken your voice! What do you do when you can’t buy a dream? The Tyranny of Questions – such an apt title. Every poem asks, “What does it all mean? What am I to make of this? Why am I here?” And is there an answer to be had? None, not a one, except in discovering forty years and forty pages of how to ask the question.
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Outside the book I ask, “How has he done it?” How has Michael Gaspeny discovered, or created, Addie’s voice and kept it sure and true through all these poems? It reassured me a little to have him tell me it took him over five years to write these, and it reassured me more to learn that Addie shadows the quietly desperate life of his mother. I told him that if I had found out he created this persona de novo, as pure imagination, I was going to burn all my old drafts and scribblings and bow at his feet, my demigod.
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But I defy anyone to ask this: How can a man be permitted to write in the voice of a woman? It is the writer’s ultimate gift, to step outside themselves. It is the ultimate gift to the reader, to open us to experiences outside ourselves. Thank you, Michael Gaspeny.
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Maybe I won’t thank him, though, for one thing. As I corresponded with Michael about discovering and acquiring voices that transcend our own, I joked about writing in the voice of the asparagus I had just cut for brunch. Michael assured me he had no doubt I would be able to do so. Now I can’t pick up the shears without hearing a small green voice saying, “Oh shit, not again!”
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Purchase The Tyranny of Questions and learn more about Unicorn Press HERE
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Michael Gaspeny has also authored the chapbooks Vocation and Re-Write Men. He has won the Randall Jarrell Poetry Prize and the O. Henry Festival Short Story Competition. He taught journalism and English for almost forty years at High Point University and Bennett College
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I Had to Do Something
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With Tommy off to college near Richmond,
Ben wheedled his father into sending him
to private school in Charlottesville
(we’ll see what comes of that experiment).
My smoke veiled the rooms. Always a Camel in hand,
another winking wherever I left my drink.
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Dear Reader, come one, come all. Meet the model
for the mystery woman etched in the pyramid
on the Camel pack. Roy grumbled, “You’ll burn us out!”
I bit back:”I’ll stop when you take that foul Pall Mall
out of your mouth.” He went cold turkey, begged
me to quit, left cancer pamphlets under my whiskey.
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My breath grew halt. I drank and dozed
on the sofa curled around silver-muzzled Fritz,
cherishing his whimpers. After years of crotch-licking
and finger-nipping, he was baby sweet,
with breath Queen Elizabeth would crawl for.
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At Brentaldo’s, I tore in a First Family of Virginia harpy
hissing because a Negro customer tried on a scarf.
That Scarlet O’Hara fright stabbed me with her eyes,
said, “At least they’re not in the changing rooms yet.
You must be a carpetbagger fortunate to kiss
the earth in God’s country of Virginia.”
I shoved her. She swung her purse.
The manager wedged between us.
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On easter, I saw her at First Colony, where self-esteem
was thicker than perfume. I thought, “If Jesus came,
they’d offer Him Communion. What have I belonged to?”
Dr. Schwepson gave me new tranqs nd the Serenity Prayer.
I raved, “I will no longer accept the things I cannot change.
This prayer is Sleepy Time tea justifying lying down
when you ought to stand up, even if I haven’t done it yet!”
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Michael Gaspeny
from The Tyranny of Questions, Unicorn Press, Greensboro NC, © 2020
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Doughton Park Tree 2020-06-11a
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